Motivation or inspiration, lackluster--
Constellation? No.
But take into consideration that I just want to be free...
free from the strains of financial inhibitions.
Free from the stress of emotional contradictions...
loves me but he had to leave me,
misses me but doesn't need me.
But me? See, I'm kinda needy.
And w/o my heart intact I'm deteriorating slowly..
Lately; my mind, it doesn't even know me,
thoughts disassociated from my body...
Can't connect anymore to my inner core,
and without internal synchronization
life just ain't phasin' me
cuz my head believes it's content with complacency
and basically,
without strength and faith my heart gets lazy...
As a result, dreams die...
cuz I'm too afraid to try,
but too shy to pry as to the true reason why
so to myself, I lie....
Smiles struggle to find their way to my face
now that peace's been replaced...
Real life hit hard with no forewarning..
All at once; income lost..
which it seems in turn cost my love loss...
spend days tryina shine night light to clarify sight...
Mental stability unravelling like a sweater poorly knit.
And then this shit.
Dreams demolished...
The path I thought I was sposed to follow to my destiny
crumbled beneath my feet with each step I took toward it..
Like I kept missin my flight every time I tried to board it..
And right now my mind just can't afford it.
Broker than an unfunny joker with bad timing, first things first.
Sick feeling lingering in my stomach incurable by any nurse...
Cry for fear that my gift is slowly becoming my curse...
What could be worse?
